some of my favourite songs and music videos ↷

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what's been on replay～ 2024/2023/2022/2021/2018

May

Calendar Girl - Stars calendar girl who's in love with the world, stay alive

I dreamed I was dying, as I so often do
and when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window, threw my head to the sky
and said, "whoever is up there, please don't let me die."

calendar girl who is lost to the world, stay alive


January, February, March, April, May
I'm alive
June, July, August, September, October
I'm alive
November, December, yeah, all through the winter
I'm alive

*

read, listen, believe, please.

Moon Rabbit - Darin

Your Ex-Lover Is Dead - Stars I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
from the house down the road from real love


live through this, and you won't look back

there's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
you were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

Reunion - Korea Girl

Heart of Gold - Fiona Apple
Under The Table - Fiona Apple

Pressure - Paramore
Brighter - Paramore (you ҉ shine ҉ bright)
and I'll wave goodbye watching you shine bright
Never Let This Go - Paramore
My Heart - Paramore

Hard Feelings/Loveless - Lorde I care for myself the way I used to care about you

Pyrite (Fool's Gold) - Frank Ocean

April

So I - Charli xcx

Sorry I Am - Del Water gap I wish I could tell you
you're drop dead kind
you're easy to talk to
and you're generous with time

What Was That - Lorde

February Air - Lights
Here We Go Again - Paramore

summer depression - girl in red

Je t'aime - CHUU

Vanish Into You - Lady Gaga

Dewy Roses - Pitcher56

i fear premature death but you look hot smoking cigarettes - DellaXOZ

theDOGS - Hiroyuki Sawano

Glass Vase Cello Case - Tattle Tale

claws - Charli xcx

March

Here is Someone - Japanese Breakfast quietly dreaming of slower days



life is sad but here is someone
someone
someone
someone

Die Your Daughter - Susannah Joffe

Leda - Japanese Breakfast
Winter in LA - Japanese Breakfast
Magic Mountain - Japanese Breakfast lovely album

Suicides Love Story - Nana Kitade

Mythological Beauty - Big Thief

Farewell to All These Rotten Teeth - Carissa's Wierd

You Should Be Hated Here - Carissa's Wierd attempting one thing
to stand up
with dignity
to walk away

where I don't feel comfortable at all
(and I don't feel proud)
where the blanket stared at me for hours
(I'm so sorry now)
and I stared right back so self-righteously
(I'm sorry now)

February

Ignorant Piece of Shit - Carissa's Wierd

Some Type Of Skin - AURORA ft. ATARASHII GAKKO!

Pictures of Us - beabadoobee

A World Alone - Lorde

Again - Fetty Wap

Love Is Lonely - NMIXX

The Piano Song - Carissa's Wierd you'll find relief somewhere
between the tree and it's shade
when you go away, heavens a distance not a place

They Only Miss You When You Leave - Carissa's Wierd telephones and postcards with misshaped hearts beside the names
I've read this letter for the hundredth time today

Tiny Vessels - Death Cab for Cutie
Conspiracy - Paramore

Alaska - Pinegrove
forward beckon rebound - Adrianne Lenker

Simple - Katy Perry

January

Water - Alex G water's all I need
now I can go back to sleep

*

these are the only lyrics but it is so addictingly good?!

Orlando in Love - Japanese Breakfast

Etienne - Ethel Cain
Amber Waves - Ethel Cain

Did I Make You Cry on Christmas Day? (Well, You Deserved It!) - Sufjan Stevens

Sidelines - Phoebe Bridgers I'm not afraid of getting older
used to fetishize myself
now I'm talking to my house plants
not of being alone
in a room full of people

now I know what it feels like
to wanna go outside

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Decemberary

songs played on new years
Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen
party 4 u - Charli xcx
forever - Charli xcx

December

Letterman - The Story So Far
Nothin' on You - B.o.B ft. Bruno Mars

Wonder Things - Cranes

Rasen - Nana Kitade

September Song - Agnes Obel

Good Night 44th Music - CONDOR44

Demi Moore - Phoebe Bridgers laughed until I couldn't breathe
now I'm too tired to go to sleep


I don't want to be alone anymore

November

Oh Star - Paramore and now I let my dreams consume me
they tell me what to think

wait
don't go away
just not yet


oh star,
fall
  down
 on
me

✩
Future - Paramore

Look Out - Alex G when I say "look out for him"
what I really mean to say is
"look out for me"

House - Alex G

Your Hand In Mine - Explosions in the Sky

Angel in the Snow - Elliott Smith don't you know that I love you?
sometimes I feel like only a cold, still life
only a frozen still life
that fell down here to lay beside you

Roman Holiday - Halsey

I Can't Take It - Tegan and Sara I've got nowhere to go.
Hurt Feelings - Halsey

Chemicals - Post Malone

Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers

SHIMI - MAXIMUM THE HORMONE feat. ATARASHII GAKKO!

October

Sympathy is a knife featuring ariana grande - Charli XCX ft. Ariana Grande

10/06 - saw ATARASHII GAKKO! live <3 full. grateful.

Drowning - WOODZ

Animals - Alex G

Champion - Nicki Minaj

Lost - Autumn's Grey Solace

September

chemical mark - Nemahsis

Poor Madeline - Daffo

August

To Watch the World Spin Without You - Mon Rovîa
Amelia - Matthew Perryman Jones

coloured concrete - Nemahsis

forever - Charli xcx

Beaches - beabadoobee
This Is How It Went - beabadoobee
California - beabadoobee

pinwheel - es.cher

Please Be Rude - Gigi Perez

Sympathy is a knife - Charli xcx

Sailor Song - Gigi Perez

Let Down - Radiohead

July

fine print - Nemahsis

Dagger - Slowdive

I Need Some Help - Post Malone, Morgan Wallen
Darkness - Pinegrove some people spend their whole lives looking
for someone who could understand
while meanwhile a lilac blooming
sometimes on the driest land
and I know it's been a long time coming
and I'm angry and I know that's weak
and I'm longing out that open window
for whatever it is I seek

Lick It Like A Kitten - Mars Argo

Unrecovery - Duster

BABY - ATARASHII GAKKO!

Painfully - Fog Lake lend some confidence
so I can get past the past-tense
Angelina - Pinegrove

Juliet - Cavetown

June

Pink Pony Club - Chappell Roan

Kokomo, IN - Japanese Breakfast

Rejoice - Julien Baker

Rejoyce - Alex G
Axesteel - Alex G

Mis - Alex G

Good News - Julien Baker
Something - Julien Baker

May

Emotional - Rilo Kiley I'm a thoughtless beast
afraid of everything

七夕 - NakamuraEmi

We'll Never Sleep (God Knows We'll Try) - Rilo Kiley

Waiting - Alice Boman

April

California - Chappell Roan

not a lot, just forever - Adrianne Lenker

Walking the Cow - Daniel Johnston

Rollin' Girl - wowaka
Happy Hour - Infinity Crush

Stupid Now - Drew Monson see I'm alone, forgive me
and there's nothing left in town, believe me
I won't go quiet if you fade away from me

Across the Universe - Fiona Apple

March

All Good Things (Come To An End) - Nelly Furtado

Dying - Hole

Someone Like You - Adele

Things to Do - Alex G and the only thing I learned from you is that there's nothing left
to look forward to
I was asleep for days, and now you're the only thing
keepin' me awake
the calculator will make the same mistakes
yeah, I see it in its face

Watching Fireworks - Oberhofer

자처 Even if you leave, - HANRORO

February

Cloudbusting - Kate Bush I just know that something good is gonna happen
I don't know when
but just saying it could even make it happen

↑ believe this!!!
つめたいこというから - chocolatre

unknown feelings - Novulent
Par 5 - Kitty Craft

Film - Aphex Twin

Angeles - Elliott Smith

itch - quinnie
flounder - quinnie
jake's car - quinnie

Happy - Mitski

Life Has Passed Me By - Oberhofer

一個眼神 - my little airport

promised - quinnie

Tonya Harding (In Eb Major) - Sufjan Stevens
Blue, Pt. 2 - Waxahatchee

Heartlocket - Elusin

better - quinnie

January

Abstract (Psychopomp) - Hozier but I'm grateful to get through

Hard Times - Ethel Cain
Western Nights - Ethel Cain

The Funeral - Band of Horses it is 2015/2016, and this is on replay.

I Also Miss the Sun - Sunnsetter

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December

I Was Here - Alex G

neko nimo ai wo - indigo la End I spent such a long time trying to find this song today...it kind of confirmed to me that the youtube search history/archive is garbage because I specifically searched for the term "neko" but nothing showed up (╬ - -)

Float On - Modest Mouse

Ask Me Why - Joe Hisaishi so beautiful

Sorry for my late reply - MEMI

half return - Adrianne Lenker

November

I Belong in Your Arms - Chairlift

Pilotis - ATARASHII GAKKO!

toumeigirl - ATARASHII GAKKO! I want to express it in words
I want to convey everything that I'm hiding

11/14 - saw ATARASHII GAKKO! live <3 IT WAS SO INCREDIBLY FUN! they're amazing, charismatic, and talented performers. "high energy", as long time fans would probably say. but truly, I admire the hard work and practice of all the members. I can't even begin to imagine how physically taxing it is so travel from city-to-city within a day, practice for hours before a performance, and then do it all again for the final show. the singing, coordinated dances, and maintaining cheerful energy!

I'm so grateful to see them as my first non-solo concert. for all the reasons above and because I love the people I went with. they made the experience even more memorable, and there were so many moments that make me laugh when I recall them (we started talking nonsense and laughing at stupid things in the pit because the show was delayed for an hour and a half). I'm thankful that b_a introduced me to them, and that we went with p_h. it was lovely to be surrounded by talent and love.

ah I'm so sad that it ended. I'm reliving the night by watching old concert clips and following their social media posts...I want to see them again if I have the opportunity. next time, I'll definitely know more songs .·°՞(◠ ◠)՞°·.

NORARI-KURARI - Nyarons

Tokyo Calling - ATARASHII GAKKO!
Giri Giri - ATARASHII GAKKO!
SEISHUN WO KIRISAKU HADO - ATARASHII GAKKO!

Jesus Christ - Brand New
Ur Purple Eyes - hey, nothing I know it seems like there is nothing else I can say
except "I love you" and "I'm sorry that you feel this way"

October

Moon - Kanye West
I Wonder - Kanye West
Devil in a New Dress - Kanye West, Rick Ross

Back to the Old House - The Smiths
Ballad of Big Nothing - Elliott Smith

Wait - M83
Thick Skull (Re: Julien Baker) - Paramore

stuck on you - april june

Weird Around You - Eerie Summer I'd rather sit and stare at the water with you

September

Sandy - Alex G

Coka, I'm Fine - my little airport I will always stand by you, so don't be afraid
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if you still remember me, just call me when you are free

Star - Mitski
I'm Your Man - Mitski
I Love Me After You - Mitski

Flying Cars - antronsongs but all you need is to have someone say, "that sucks, I hear you"

Just for me - PinkPantheress the music video is so so cute. also, this song makes me feel sad in a bittersweet way.

October Passed Me By - girl in red

Last Time I Saw You - Nicki Minaj

Heaven - Mitski now I bend like a willow
thinkin' of you

☘︎

something set free
is runnin’ through the night
and the dark awaits us
all around the corner
but here in our place
we havе for the day
can we stay awhile and listen for

heaven

☘︎

"I think the song Heaven is one of the most romantic songs on the upcoming album"

August

Walkabout - Atlas Sound ft. Noah Lennox this was played before alex g performed. I like it a lot.

08/28 - saw Alex G live <3 live music and performances makes me so emotional--having the lyrics blasted onto your body and feeling yourself vibrate from the music. I could feel the bass (I think?) in my sternum.

but man...I'm going to be a gatekeeper for a moment. it's undeniable that certain alex g songs have been popularized by tiktok (i.e., sarah and mary), and this fact was jarringly reflected at the concert. it made me feel weird because on one hand, I'm happy that alex g is getting the recognition he deserves*. but on another, it made me sad to see the crowd noticeably craze during the performance of sarah and mary, but become mild at the rest of his discography. I love sarah and mary, but his new work is just as great. we should fall apart more during his performance of forgive or ain't it easy...

*but also, he deserves recognition beyond music being used over someone's thrift haul or outfit check on tiktok. not really a fan of how he's become a symbol of "sad people music" or "esoteric media"...it's like watching something pure and meaningful become contrived because of how people identify with it. I'm feeling like a geezer.

mine - Kelly Clarkson

Talk - beabadoobee

Angels Like You - Miley Cyrus

Race - Alex G you're starting to look really weird, oh yeah
your face is out of place and I can't make you out
and I forget just what you said

but you're okay with me

July

Bug Like an Angel - Mitski
Nobody Gets Me - SZA
Maria - Greg Mendez

Sometimes - Japancakes

浪漫九龍塘 - my little airport I want to sing you a song
about me and you went to Kowloon Tong

エレクトロ・ワールド - Perfume

June

Runaway - Kanye West

May

Dee, It May All End Tomorrow - my little airport

Nutshell - Alice In Chains

피어나 (Between you, me and the lamppost) - LE SSERAFIM

April

Dramamine - Modest Mouse

Jane Cum - Japanese Breakfast

Save Me - Aimee Mann
Never Again - Yung Lean

Karen Don't Be Sad - Miley Cyrus the world can still be beautiful
that part's up to you

Butterfly - Sogyumo Acacia Band

March

Like A Knife - Jessica Winter

Sea of Teeth - Sparklehorse

yasasihikari - Cryuff In The Bedroom

all i ever wanted was you - Reece

February

Stay/Stayaway - yourboyfriendsucks!

Two Weeks in December - Skullcrusher
Falling Apart - Slow Pulp
Killer Whale - Boyscott
M for Magic - Lomelda
Instrumental 3 - Florist

You Are In Trouble - Alex G
Face Dream - Alex G

V - Valium Aggelein

Lady Daydream - Mr Twin Sister

January

Fire - MAVICA

Who Knew - P!nk

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December

Adore You - Miley Cyrus

L’Amour Looks Something Like You - Kate Bush

November

Hannah Sun - Lomelda

On The Moon - SULLI why do you look so blue?

I Love You Mr Snowball - Chestnut Bakery
Moon Palace - Chestnut Bakery

椿の視線 - Drowning Love (Oboreru Knife)

Your World is Eternally Complete - Sweet Trip

Mission - Alex G
Ain't it Easy - Alex G
Immunity - Alex G

May - Lucie, Too

11/05 - saw Alex G live <3

October

For You - SALES foryouforyouforyouforyou...

September

After All - Alex G
Bags - Clairo

Miracles - Alex G

Come Over (Again) - Crawlers
i walk this earth all by myself - EKKSTACY
Beautiful World - Parannoul

August

In Heaven - Japanese Breakfast I finished Crying in H Mart. I would search up things referenced in the memoir; songs, videos, live performances, etc. I think about the concept of connectivity that spans time. by accessing referenced media in the book, I can experience another pair of "eyes". it's heartbreaking but it feels...meaningful.

Boys are Cuter When They're Crying - Venus & the Flytraps

Cross the Sea - Alex G

Ivy - Frank Ocean

July

Runner - Alex G it's strange, and it makes me feel so so emotional.
my favourite musician on something mainstream as the tonight show. "the big screen". no words. just want to cry a little.

Be Sweet feat. So!YoON! - Japanese Breakfast

ハナレバナレ - キセル
Hummingbird Heartbeat - Katy Perry

マヨイガ - 羊文学

June

Bizarre Love Triangle - Frente!

Runner - Alex G

Flow - Transister

banging the drum - ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION

Madonna - Snail Mail
Lily of the Valley - DANIEL

May

I Do - Sixpence None The Richer

Jen is Bringing the Drugs - Margot and the Nuclear So and So's and I don't wanna be found
so when you get home
I'm skipping town
I'm leaving to go someplace
where nobody will have any clue where I am

Little Person - Jon Brion I know you
you're the one I've waited for
let's have some fun

Angry - Mars Argo

April

LUNCH - my little airport

神様のヒマ潰し - GO!GO!7188

Skipper - Alex G

Tek It - Cafuné

March

ICE BOY - Corbin you call me pathetic, at least I tried

Your Dog - Soccer Mommy

End Song - Alex G I tumble through my day
a fish in mud

85 - Rilo Kiley I've been a mess for some time now
I get what I deserve
for someone who leaves behind a lot
I can do better
Consolation - JAURIM

I don' t wanna get out of futon - 打首獄門同好会 (Uchikubi Gokumon Doukoukai)

February

I Wish You Were a Girl - 12 RODS
Zombie - The Cranberries

Rock With U - Janet Jackson

I Love You - Avril Lavigne
Innocence - Avril Lavigne

02/04 - Laurel Hell - Mitski is out!!!!

January

退屈しのぎ - Kinokoteikoku

Running Up That Hill - Kate Bush

Human Condition - Great Grandpa today, I felt like I truly listened to the lyrics.
today, I felt less alone.


I know you feel done but you're still so young
sometimes living is hard, hard work
.
.
can't get out of bed
so I'll just lay here
slow my mind down

Sunset - Beach House

Love Me More - Mitski

Ballerina - Olivia Lufkin
Stars Shining Out - Olivia Lufkin

TOYHOLIC - PSY・S

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